Hello and welcome back my wonderful and beautiful internet friends!
So it’s been awhile since I have had an open conversation about me and my life personally. Let’s change that.
It’s been about a month or so since I last updated you guys and a lot has changed and happened. All have been good or blessings in disguise. The biggest update of them all is that I am finally divorced.
Now I’m sure that a lot of you loyal readers and followers are questioning me. Especially because I gush about my boyfriend ever chance I get. Well that’s a complicated (not really in my opinion) situation. I separated from my ex over a year ago, tried to file for divorce (with not a lot of help from him or anyone), the county I lived in at the time required to have the paperwork approved in order to actually file for divorce. For silly reasons my paperwork kept getting rejected. Then I moved, met my perfect man along the way, and so the divorce process reset with residing in a new county and got put on pause. I had to live in my new county for 90 days in order to be able to file. So I waited and waited and waited then finally got to file (again with no help for anyone which is hard and frustrating). Once I filed I had to wait some more. After almost three month (again) of waiting I finally got my court date. Which was (AGAIN) three months away.
Divorce is not easy or quick. I happened to meet my guy during all the mess when I wasn’t looking but boy am I thankful for that. I don’t know how I would have handled all this without him and for that I am grateful forever.
I’m sure that a lot of you want to tell me you’re sorry but don’t. If you want to say something, please congratulate me instead. I’m honestly thrilled! It’s been a long and hard journey, a hard and very big lesson that I had to go through to learn. But I learned more than I could have ever thought I would about myself. And I’m finally a free (legally) single woman! YES!!! 😀
Another thing that has taken place in the last month or so is that I got a new (to me) car! Good ole Oliver (that was my previous car’s name, yes I name my cars and pretty much any other technology in my life) was dying. My 2003 Honda Accord EX had been my best friend (yes, legitimately I considered him one of my best friends) for seven years and had 254,000 miles on him. It was time for a new friend.
Cue my intro for my new car. Her name is Vivian. She is a black 2013 Honda CR-V EX with only 54,000 miles, she is a shy girl. I love to give my cars names and personalities as you can see. 😛 The other amazing thing about her is that ironically a Honda CR-V is my obtainable dream car and here I am at 24 and I own my obtainable dream car. I’m a simple woman when it comes to most cars and dream cars and so here we are. 😛
So those are my two big news worthy happenings as well as blessings in disguises. Now on to some more generalities that have been going on.
Lately, I have been planning some exciting things to take place but my issue at the moment is both follow through and a lack of motivation. I need to be the change I want to see but I also just want to play around and have fun rather than sit down and get to work which is an issue. I can sit here and point fingers all day at others in my life for not being on me to do things and all that but that wouldn’t be honest. I don’t know what exactly it is but it’s like I’ve lost a bit of my drive somewhere along the way recently. I just know that I really need to find it and get it back. I’m not sure exactly how I am going to do that but I’m going to try. Just like everyone else, I wish there were more hours in the day. It’d make it all easier but I would probably end up still procrastinating and not do what I should be doing.
And while we’re at all the honestly, I might as well give you guys a fitness update. The fitness update isn’t too good looking. I have gained weight and I’m not happy about it. But have I done anything about it? No. Why? Because again, I’m missing that drive and motivation to follow through with it. I honestly think that my next step with this is to try and treat myself almost like a child with it; bribing myself. I really want this to work and maybe it will. Maybe it won’t. I won’t know until I try it and I will most definitely keep you guys updated with it.
Overall though I could sit here and grumble and grump about all of the bad but that’s not right. I have a lot of good going on and I need to keep focused on that. The negative things hurt and suck and I’m disappointed with where I’ve let myself get but I just keep telling myself that there’s so much more than that because there really is. Struggling is just part of the journey. It keeps you humble and allows you to enjoy the good that much more in my opinion. Which I have found to be really and honestly true. Just try and remember that next time things do awry.
Stay classy and sassy, loves ❤