Road Blocks and Guilt

See what I’ve done to myself now

Sunday afternoon I threw my back out. Pulling laundry out of the hamper. I swear it wasn’t anything more exciting than that. Plus this is like the fourth or fifth time in my life that I have done this. And I’m 24 years old. Terrible right?

Well it seems that every time that I throw my back out it gets harder and harder to recuperate from it. And this time it’s the longest it’s ever been. It’s Wednesday and I’m still struggling but it is getting better every single day.

Of course this can’t come at a worse time for me personally. I’m trying to prepare for the holidays, working overtime at work, making new products for my shop and trying to make my products for the sales I’ve been making! Plus this time of year really tends to get me down for personal reasons I’m not going to air right now. I hope you all understand.

This also has been taking it’s toll on my writing. I have pretty much just been living in my bed and watching TV or reading after I get off work because it’s the only thing that can take my mind off the pain.

The guilt that I have been feeling lately is not helping either. I feel guilty because I psychically can’t do something or need help and it sucks. I know I shouldn’t because I can’t help it but I do. Thankfully my mom has been wonderful in helping me where she can with things to make it a little less but it still sucks not being able to do something.

I put so much on myself and try to put so little on to others that when I do need help because I’m in a position where I physically am incapable it brings me way way way down.

So I’m taking a few days and I’m going to rest and get better and help heal my body and mind. That way I can come back better for my work and hopefully come back with more new and great things.

Stay classy and sassy<3

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