So ya girl finally got hit with the winter sickness.
And the winter blues.
Which is why two posts were missing from last week.
So I want to be up front and honest with you guys. My mental health has been deteriorating over the past couple of months and I’m doing everything I can to hold on to what I have and build back the rest.
Which is why I want to share what I have been doing to try and help myself. To hopefully help you guys that are having a tough time like I am.
I’ve been reading a lot more, taking the time to myself to read, just to get out of my head for a bit. Books have always been my biggest escape from the world so getting back into that is nice. I recently picked up a bunch of new books (not that I need them, because I don’t, my backlog is HUGE).
I’m also trying to remind myself to get dressed, even if I’m going to be at home all day because looking nice is sometimes half the battle, especially with me because some of my current feelings have to do with the way I look. Plus if I already fought myself to get dressed and ready for the day, I’m more likely to go out and do something, which gets me moving and active which is a good thing. Plus I’m making myself go out. I drag myself out of bed and to work when I don’t want to (which is saying a lot if I don’t want to go to work as I love my job). I’m just trying to keep a normal and consistent schedule. For me, inconsistencies are sometimes an issue for me, especially when it comes to my social anxieties.
Which keeping a normal and consistent schedule also means doing a lot of the same things even when I’m at home. Which is really tough. I don’t always want to work on my blog or my Etsy shop when I get super down but (trying to) stick with these things really do help.
I also am making sure I tell people what’s going on the best that I can and talking to them. Being upfront and honest with a lot of the people in my life makes it easier to go to them or leaves them understanding a bit more why I may cancel or reject an invite to go out and do things. Though the people I surround myself with are amazing and a tremendous help, they can’t do everything, which is why I started seeing a psychologist again. Now this particular psychologist is someone that I saw in the past and both decided together with where he is located geographically and my schedule and a few other things to go our separate ways so I will be venturing in to new territory as I start my journey finding someone new, that I am compatible with. Thankfully he gave me a recommendation but we will have to wait and see.
Seeing someone is a lot of different emotions. I know that I am the first to support and even sometimes push friends and loved ones towards a therapy route to help them but at the same time it’s hard to get to a place where you, yourself is ready to go forward with it. I know I just got to that place.
Just like anything else, I have my good days with this and my bad days. Today is a sort of bad day for me. But all I can do is take it one day at a time and see what tomorrow brings.
Stay classy and sassy.