Life and Fitness Update

Raw and honest but short and sweet!

So I wanted to give you guys an update on me and let it be a little bit more raw and honest. Not that I’m not usually honest but I’m going to be a little bit more out there than usual.

First and foremost I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder in the past and most recently, post-traumatic stress disorder. Let me tell you, this combination can be really hard at times. And lately it has been extremely difficult. Every single day has been aย struggle lately to get out of bed and to keep going on with my normal tasks like work, conversations with people, leaving the house, etc. Even blogging lately has been hard. Some of the reasons for the spike in symptoms I know and I have been trying to manage but a lot of them I don’t. I have been trying my best to do everything I know of to help keep things somewhat under control. I also am hoping that the more I keep doing these things and powering through normal every day life that this surge in symptoms will pass with time. All I know is right now, every day is hell. But I’m trying my hardest to keep hope up.

Fitness wise I have gotten back into the swing of things, I have been working my butt off to keep active and to be healthier (not food-wise nearly as much though).

I know it’s short but it’s sweet and gets to the point. Today has been a very hard day for me and I thought about not even posting at all but I didn’t want to let any of you guys down.

I hope you all have a wonderful and amazing weekend. Stay classy and sassy. โค

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Real Life and Fitness Talking

Update!

Hello my lovely loves!

Sorry about Wednesday, some talks had to happen concerning some personal things and it just honestly wiped me out emotionally, mentally and physically and put me down for the count.

Today is exciting because I am coming to you guys from Chicago! I am sure you’re saying, hey why you there? Well I’m here because I am attending C2E2. The biggest convention I have ever attending and I can’t be more excited. This is actually the first convention that I had to find somewhere to stay at funny enough. I honestly feel like a kid on Christmas. I couldn’t sleep really at all last night. Partially because the bed at the Air BnB sucks but also because I am just TOO EXCITED!

Just to talk briefly about updating you guys on life and fitness and stuff, pretty much all I have been doing is working. Which sucks. But it’s how I am able to afford to do the things that I do so it can’t be all bad ๐Ÿ™‚

With my bits of free time I have been finding myself devouring books and making crafts as well as drawing. What am I going to do with these crafts I’ve been making you ask? I am actually planning on opening up an Etsy shop hopefully sooner rather than later. So please be on the look out for me pimping that out once it goes live. I would love for you guys to take a look at it.

With everything that has been going on family wise, it’s been super hard to say the least. It has tested all of our strengths as a family and as people and I am very proud overall with how my parents and I have all dealt with this time. And Mathew, though he’s not family he has been absolutely amazing and a blessing during all of this. It has definitely been a change and a learning experience but I think we are all coming out on the other side better and stronger.

I think it is honestly interesting how we can change and evolve so much as individual people but when certain things happen it takes us right back to what we used to do and what we have always found comfort in. For me that is books and music. I have always felt a deep connection to both books and music. They have always been comforting to me and been a safe place to “run off to” or express myself with. And right now has been no exception to that. I think I’ll put together a playlist to show you guys some of the music I’ve been listening to and what helps me get through the darker times. Also I most definitely will be talking about the books I have been reading because they have all be AMAZING!

Something that has honestly been just great for me lately, especially with all the has gone on and all that continues to go on is the weather. Spring is finally here and I can’t be happier about it! I have taken advantage on more that one occasion to walk on my lunch break to grab lunch or to take a walk after work and I have love it. I am surrounded by such beautiful places and taking the time to get out and enjoy them while also getting some fitness in is just great. So I am finally back on the fitness track.

Well not with my diet anyways.

I have been trying, somewhat, to eat better and watch how much I eat. But this weekend I’m in Chicago and on vacation. So screw that. I will be eating a lot of good ole Chicago style food.

I honestly can’t wait to tell you guys all about this weekend. I want to hear about your weekend plans too! So tell me!

Stay classy and sassy โค

Living Life With Collinswoah13

Giving you guys an update on my life!

Hello and welcome back my wonderful and beautiful internet friends!

So it’s been awhile since I have had an open conversation about me and my life personally. Let’s change that.

It’s been about a month or so since I last updated you guys and a lot has changed and happened. All have been good or blessings in disguise. The biggest update of them all is that I am finally divorced.

Now I’m sure that a lot of you loyal readers and followers are questioning me. Especially because I gush about my boyfriend ever chance I get. Well that’s a complicated (not really in my opinion) situation. I separated from my ex over a year ago, tried to file for divorce (with not a lot of help from him or anyone), the county I lived in at the time required to have the paperwork approved in order to actually file for divorce. For silly reasons my paperwork kept getting rejected. Then I moved, met my perfect man along the way, and so the divorce process reset with residing in a new county and got put on pause. I had to live in my new county for 90 days in order to be able to file. So I waited and waited and waited then finally got to file (again with no help for anyone which is hard and frustrating). Once I filed I had to wait some more. After almost three month (again) of waiting I finally got my court date. Which was (AGAIN) three months away.

Divorce is not easy or quick. I happened to meet my guy during all the mess when I wasn’t looking but boy am I thankful for that. I don’t know how I would have handled all this without him and for that I am grateful forever.

I’m sure that a lot of you want to tell me you’re sorry but don’t. If you want to say something, please congratulate me instead. I’m honestly thrilled! It’s been a long and hard journey, a hard and very big lesson that I had to go through to learn. But I learned more than I could have ever thought I would about myself. And I’m finally a free (legally) single woman! YES!!! ๐Ÿ˜€

Another thing that has taken place in the last month or so is that I got a new (to me) car! Good ole Oliver (that was my previous car’s name, yes I name my cars and pretty much any other technology in my life) was dying. My 2003 Honda Accord EX had been my best friend (yes, legitimately I considered him one of my best friends) for seven years and had 254,000 miles on him. It was time for a new friend.

Cue my intro for my new car. Her name is Vivian. She is a black 2013 Honda CR-V EX with only 54,000 miles, she is a shy girl. I love to give my cars names and personalities as you can see. ๐Ÿ˜› The other amazing thing about her is that ironically a Honda CR-V is my obtainable dream car and here I am at 24 and I own my obtainable dream car. I’m a simple woman when it comes to most cars and dream cars and so here we are. ๐Ÿ˜›

So those are my two big news worthy happenings as well as blessings in disguises. Now on to some more generalities that have been going on.

Lately,ย I have been planning some exciting things to take place but my issue at the moment is both follow through and a lack of motivation. I need to be the change I want to see but I also just want to play around and have fun rather than sit down and get to work which is an issue. I can sit here and point fingers all day at others in my life for not being on me to do things and all that but that wouldn’t be honest. I don’t know what exactly it is but it’s like I’ve lost a bit of my drive somewhere along the way recently. I just know that I really need to find it and get it back. I’m not sure exactly how I am going to do that but I’m going to try. Just like everyone else, I wish there were more hours in the day. It’d make it all easier but I would probably end up still procrastinating and not do what I should be doing.

And while we’re at all the honestly, I might as well give you guys a fitness update. The fitness update isn’t too good looking. I have gained weight and I’m not happy about it. But have I done anything about it? No. Why? Because again, I’m missing that drive and motivation to follow through with it. I honestly think that my next step with this is to try and treat myself almost like a child with it; bribing myself. I really want this to work and maybe it will. Maybe it won’t. I won’t know until I try it and I will most definitely keep you guys updated with it.

Overall though I could sit here and grumble and grump about all of the bad but that’s not right. I have a lot of good going on and I need to keep focused on that. The negative things hurt and suck and I’m disappointed with where I’ve let myself get but I just keep telling myself that there’s so much more than that because there really is. Struggling is just part of the journey. It keeps you humble and allows you to enjoy the good that much more in my opinion. Which I have found to be really and honestly true. Just try and remember that next time things do awry.

Stay classy and sassy, loves โค

Collinswoah13’s Life & Fitness Update!

Keeping y’all up to date on me!

Hello and welcome back! As part of my promise to you guys from the start of this, I want to have an open and honest dialogue with you and so that’s what I’mย going to do today.

To be completely honest with you guys I have been struggling more than I’d like to admit lately. And I am a big supporter in saying that it’s okay to be down, because it really is. It’s just important to pull yourself back up which isn’t always the easy task but we all are capable of doing it.

Now most of January I spent quite down overall. Most things in my life just got to feel very overwhelming and difficult to carry on and carry out. That’s not to say I didn’t have some amazing and happy times during the month of January because I did. I still try my best to stay humble and appreciate everything I am able to do and experience because I know that I am very blessed with all the opportunities presented to me. Some times you just get down just because and that’s what happened to me.

I took some time to myself to recoup and start over with everything. I also decided to take my own advice from my Winter Blues post and have spent a lot of time writing, creating and listen to music and that has help tremendously. I am thankful that I have some amazing people surrounding me because they helped with everything in themselves to push and pull me through the dark times this month and for that I am eternally grateful to them.

Don’t worry, I am feeling a lot better and back to my normal self. Things have calmed down and so have I ๐Ÿ˜‰ I have been planning some exciting things that are to come as well as focusing on myself. I feel that I have a lot better of an attitude towards things and people lately though I do slip up at times, which don’t we all? ๐Ÿ˜›

As for my fitness journey, it’s been lacking until fairly recently. I have no cut out all fast food and I’m also cutting out sweets (but allowing myself to have a treat once a month). So far it’s been difficult because the cravings are very much still there and fast food is just so easy and quick to do. Especially with my very busy and very on the go life.

I have been making more of an effort with my FitBit to not only hit my step goal every day but to hit it earlier in the day while I’m at work. I personally don’t go to a gym but I have been looking in to actual workout routines that I can do at home and I really can’t wait to start one of those.

I haven’t lost any more weight but I have seemed to maintain what I’ve lost for the most part. It most definitely has not been easy, mostly because of all the trips and experiences I’ve been able to go on and do lately but I’ve been successful in not going back to where I was and that’s the important part of all this.

Life isn’t always the easiest and that’s okay. We have our bad days which is both okay and understandable. We can’t always be up. We can’t always be happy. I never expect that from anyone. It’s just important to do what’s best for ourselves, our mental health, and to keep all lines of communication open as well as to communicate that with those important in our lives. Remember it’s not about what life hands us, it’s about what we do with what we have been handed that matters.

Until Monday, stay classy and sassy friends. โค

 

Fitness Updatin’ Time!

My first update on my fitness journey!

Okay so like I told y’all in a previous post I would be keeping you guys in the loop of my fitness journey; both the triumphs and tribulations.

Well this update isn’t too much of a positive one.

So we just ended the holiday season and I am one to most definitely give in to the holiday temptations. And just like every other year I did. I wasn’t trying to eat well or watch my calories or say no to what I wanted. I just gave in. Completely. Now that the holidays are over and my birthday is only a week away (YAY BIRTHDAY!). I plan on starting anew on the 16th with my diet.

Exercise however is a different story, I have been trying to remain somewhat active and have adding things in here and there to get myself back up to where I was activity wise but I won’t lie, it’s been hard since I stopped. I have noticed weight gain but not too much thankfully. Though it is just enough to push myself back in to being on the right track.

Things like this can most definitely be discouraging but instead of letting this get me down I’m really just letting this fuel me to be better next time with my choices and to continue to get those numbers down on the scale.

I have been blessed with a tremendous amount of support throughout every avenue in my life and for that I am very thankful. Without my fantastic support system this journey would be a lot harder.

I would like to leave y’all with this, if you have a setback don’t focus on it, just keep pushing forward. Rely a little more on the people around you to push you through it until you find the strength within yourself to get completely back on top. You got this and so do I! If this was an easy journey then everyone would be doing it, no problem.

Until Monday, stay classy and stay sassy ๐Ÿ™‚

Let’s talk about fitness for a moment

Giving an overview of my fitness journey so far.

This is the very first blog post of Collinswoah’sCorner! Oh man. This is so crazy to believe!!

First of all welcome to all you lovely and wonderful beings!

Now as this is the first post I thought we’d start off by talking about something exciting! Weight loss!!

I personally am on a weight loss journey right now. I am a bigger girl and I absolutely love my curves but I have also realized that the amount of curves I had at the beginning of the year weren’t necessarily the most flattering or the healthiest.

I want to share this journey with you guys, the ups and downs, triumphs and tribulations, throughout this whole process. Hopefully it will help motivate and keep me accountable but also inspire you guys with whatever you want to do!

Now starting the beginning of this year I weighed in at a whopping 335lbs. I was wearing a 2XL and almost a size 26. It was just sad. Cue the unflattering picture of myself:

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Fast forward to today, almost a full year later, and I am down to 276lbs and comfortably wearing a XL and a size 16. Cue better looking, happier picture:

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How have I done it might you ask? To be completely honest the start of this journey didn’t start out as the healthiest of choices. I went through a lot this year, emotionally, physically, and mentally causing me to become extremely stressed out which made my appetite non-existent. So if you don’t get the drift, I wasn’t eating like I should be.

Needless to say things calmed down and I got back into the correct way of doing things so no worries! I have been eating healthy and doing things to stay moving to help both keep the weight off and to continue to lose weight. I might not be losing weight nearly as quickly as I was but, I have been able to maintain a steady weight loss rather than gain any of my lost weight back which is the important part, along with being healthy about it.

But back to how exactly I’ve been able to shed this weight once I started doing it the healthy way. I have been trying to make better food choices while not restricting myself too much. If I want the fast food, I’ll still get it but choose smaller portions and healthier options; staying away from the french fries or getting a single burger rather than the double, etc. I also will limit myself in unhealthy options each day; if I choose to have Chipotle or something more fatty or caloric for lunch then I’ll try and grab something light like a salad or soup for dinner. I’ve also been trying to watch my sugar and carb intake as well which I have noticed has made quite the difference in my body. It has made me honestly feel a lot better overall; I don’t feel as tired or sluggish because of it, and it has helped me continue to lose weight.

As for what I have been doing to be active is honestly not all that impressive. I try to be more active throughout the day, especially at work and I’ve been doing some in home workouts when I get the chance. With my job personally is more of a stationary job so when I don’t have customers I will drive my coworkers crazy by pacing back and forth the stretch of my work area which makes my fitness tracker very happy ๐Ÿ˜› When the weather is not cold like it is I will go out for walks around the many beautiful areas surrounding where I live but since its winter I try to make time for doing little workouts in my room. So crunches, lunges and arm workouts galore.

This was quite a lot to throw at y’all straight off the bat but I will be keeping you guys updated from time to time about how this journey as going. I can’t wait to celebrate the triumphs with you as well as let you share in my tribulations of this long and difficult process.

Until next time friends, stay classy and sassy ๐Ÿ˜‰