Road Blocks and Guilt

See what I’ve done to myself now

Sunday afternoon I threw my back out. Pulling laundry out of the hamper. I swear it wasn’t anything more exciting than that. Plus this is like the fourth or fifth time in my life that I have done this. And I’m 24 years old. Terrible right?

Well it seems that every time that I throw my back out it gets harder and harder to recuperate from it. And this time it’s the longest it’s ever been. It’s Wednesday and I’m still struggling but it is getting better every single day.

Of course this can’t come at a worse time for me personally. I’m trying to prepare for the holidays, working overtime at work, making new products for my shop and trying to make my products for the sales I’ve been making! Plus this time of year really tends to get me down for personal reasons I’m not going to air right now. I hope you all understand.

This also has been taking it’s toll on my writing. I have pretty much just been living in my bed and watching TV or reading after I get off work because it’s the only thing that can take my mind off the pain.

The guilt that I have been feeling lately is not helping either. I feel guilty because I psychically can’t do something or need help and it sucks. I know I shouldn’t because I can’t help it but I do. Thankfully my mom has been wonderful in helping me where she can with things to make it a little less but it still sucks not being able to do something.

I put so much on myself and try to put so little on to others that when I do need help because I’m in a position where I physically am incapable it brings me way way way down.

So I’m taking a few days and I’m going to rest and get better and help heal my body and mind. That way I can come back better for my work and hopefully come back with more new and great things.

Stay classy and sassy<3

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Reading & Writing

Lately I have been reading a lot. Like almost all of my free time has been spent reading. From manga to novels, I have been devouring a lot of what is on my bookshelves. Which is a good thing because my backlog is HUGE!

So where did this motivation for reading come from? I recently discovered a side of YouTube that I had no idea existed. BookTube. I don’t know why I didn’t think that this existed but I have been so engrossed in my new find. I think seeing so many other people’s love for books and reading really inspired me to read more and discover new authors, worlds, characters and stories.

I also have been lacking in the inspiration department for my own stories. Reading is a way that I can find inspiration to breathe new life into stories to keep them going. Now this can also be dangerous as sometimes work can too closely resemble another author’s story or writing style. I’m still learning and try my best to combat this by not reading the same author too much in a period of time when I know that I will also be writing.

Some of you may be asking what exactly have I been reading? Well, I am preparing for the new Cardcaptor Sakura manga to be released this month, So I read the Master of Clow arc that I had no idea existed until recently. I also have read the first 3 books of the Sword Art Online light novel series because I am a weeb. I read Firecracker by David Iserson and  Lies my Girlfriend Told Me by Julie Anne Peters. All are fantastic books in their own right. They all have inspired me to keep going with my current stories but to also try working with different kinds of characters and stories. I’m looking forward to continuing to both read and write more as well as see how all of my recent and current reading shapes and influences my writing. Both in good and bad ways 😛

Stay classy and sassy ❤

Thoughts

“I’m not ready.”

Yet I never will be.

“It’s not fair.”

Then again it never is.

“I’ll never adjust.”

Suddenly, one day you do.

“I never asked for this.”

No one ever does, but you deal.

“I’ll never forget.”

And I don’t, though I do forgive.

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Looks like poetry is making a comeback from me.

❤ Stay classy and sassy

Happy Birthday!

My blog turns one!!!!

Yesterday (11/28) marked a full year of Collinswoah’s Corner!!! A FULL ENTIRE YEAR! I knew it was coming up but holy cow I didn’t think it was already here!!

Birthday cupcake

Collinswoah’s Corner has grown quite a bit in a year. It went from primarily being about nerdy things of all sorts to being more about my writing and sometimes my projects and crafts. I also went from a free site to a paid one all because I hit my view goal out of the park. Thank you guys.

This blog has also helped me grow as a person. It’s a huge step to take to put yourself out on the internet and share your personal writing. But hey, I’m doing it! Yay!

I have to say a BIG thank you to everyone who has ever visited this blog, everyone who will visit and everyone who continues to visit. You all mean so very much to me. Thank you, thank you, thank you! Without you guys this blog would not be possible.

To say thank you even more I am having my biggest sale to date in my Etsy shop. Take advantage of 25% everything, including any custom orders I am able to do. Check out the sale here. The sale runs from 11/29/17-12/09/17.

Year one has been a HUGE success for Collinswoah’s Corner and I can’t wait to see what all happens in year two.

Thank you all with all my heart.

Stay classy and sassy<3

Etsy Announcement!

Sale in my shop! Take advantage of savings!

In honor of Black Friday and Cyber Monday, I have a sale going on in my Etsy shop.

Almost everything is 20% off!

Seriously.

Go check it out!

Pictured above are most of the items I sell in my shop and are all on sale!

The sale is going through 11/28 so don’t wait!

A lot of great and unique gift ideas for the holidays coming up 😉

Stay classy and sassy!

Current Work in Progresses!

Look what I’m making for my shop next!

Remember how I said I wanted to share all of my creative outlets?

Well here we go! I thought I’d share some of my current work in progresses for my Etsy shop!

First up, I’m working on these awesome Star Wars character standees:

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I’m super happy with how the characters are turning out and love that the logo makes a perfect base for them to stand on. My biggest struggles with this projects has been ironing the base and making sure the tongue of the characters that fit into the base have melted enough while not melting the rest of the character too much. I personally have not been brave enough to attempt the taping method which is why ironing the base was so troublesome for me. Looks like I’m going to have to buck up and try it sooner rather than later!

So this is my next work in progress:

Yup! More perlers! These go along with my GameBoy earbud winders. I’m soon going to be offering GameBoy Advance earbud winders that look like this! These are seriously cool looking in my opinion. I am super excited for these to launch!

Stay tuned for updates these to hit my shop and other work in progresses I find myself getting into and sharing.

Stay classy and sassy!

Lost in Thought

Sharing some thoughts from last night

Last night as I had YouTube aimlessly playing music in the background of me getting some stuff done around my room, it was randomly playing song after song. I soon found myself “rabbit holing” to some real throwbacks of my teenage years. I stopped to listen and really hear the lyrics to some of my favorite tunes from my past. The lyrics caught me by surprise to some of the songs. My younger self hadn’t truly listened or understood much of what the artist was singing about.

Now I do. And oh how I can relate now. These songs and subject matter really struck a chord with me and immediately got me thinking about myself, my life and my choices so far.

At first I was thinking about all the mistakes I’ve made. But I stopped myself. That word, mistakes. I don’t feel like it should be a word, at least not one to be used to describe past choices in one’s life. Every choice or action I made and make serves a purpose. I might not like the outcome of that choice or action I make but if I didn’t make that choice or do that action I wouldn’t be right where I am today.

And I like where I am today. Honestly it takes a lot of strength, understanding and patience to say that.

Let me put it into a bit of perspective for you. I am 24 years old and I live at home with my family again after previously living on my own. I’m also divorced. My marriage lasted less than a year and I was left with a lot of feelings and emotions after my marriage ended. Now I won’t get into all of that, but last night I was thinking about my marriage and divorce, I was thinking about how it was a big mistake.

In reality that couldn’t be further from the truth. It was meant to happen to teach me so much about myself, about others, about love and about relationships.

Plus if I hadn’t chosen to do it, I wouldn’t have Mathew or my career or some of the best friends I am blessed to have now. I also doubt I would have my blog or my Etsy shop if I hadn’t had my marriage and divorce. I just know that I definitely wouldn’t have the appreciation for everything that I do now.

This is all a good and helpful reminder that everything really does happen for a reason. I am understanding and accepting of my choices. I am happy I went through my marriage and my divorces. As weird as that sounds.

I just need to remind myself of this from time to time.

So remember, no mistakes, only purpose.

This isn’t to say we can’t change choices or mend broken things. We can. We will.

Stay classy and sassy<3