Change

Enjoy another poem.

Hello guys!

I wrote another poem. Such a surprise right? Nope. Not at all. Here it is:

Change.

Sometimes I’m aware its happening

Other times I’m oblivious.

But regardless I’m always patient.

Biding my time

Being understanding

When all I actually want to do is

Scream, shout, yell.

Tell things to stop. To stay the same or go back to how they were.

I’m not ready for it.

I don’t want it.

And yet,

It happens.

Things change.

And I’m still here;

Being patient,

Understanding,

And trying to make the best of it.

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Okay, so I wrote this for so many different reasons and things and I want it to stay that way. To stay vague.

So I won’t comment on it too much or expand on my thoughts when writing it because I don’t want to take away from the beauty that it is with how it can be applied to so many specific things as well as broad and generic ideas.

Hope you enjoyed it. It felt good to get out.

Love you guys.

Stay classy and sassy like always.

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Reflections

Reflecting on scary things.

Hello guys and welcome back!

It’s Friday the 13th! In October! Oooh. How spooky. 😛

So today, is another super emotional day for me where I’m just sitting here trying to get things out. But I can’t. I don’t want to give the things that terrify me any more power over me than they already do. And I feel like if I write about them in the way that I’m feeling about them right now, I will.

Funny how that is right? Writing is this release to let it all out and make you feel better when the emotions get to be too much but I also find that it’s a super fine line as well. Where writing it down and especially sharing it with others can sometimes make that hold on you stronger and more real.

Which is honestly what I’m trying to avoid. I have worked so incredibly hard to not let the things I fear and I am terrified of take over me. I have worked so hard to have some control over them.

But at the same time, writing about them also gives me the strength and fuels me with anger to not let them have too much control.

I don’t want to run away anymore. But I also don’t want to run around looking for the things that scare me and give me terror. I will face it head on from now on though.

I’m tired of given them power. For now, I have the power.

Stay classy and sassy.

 

 

Complaints

Read it all, it gets better than the title. Promise.

We did it!

We have made it through another week! Now for the fun times! The weekend! Oh I am so excited. So many plans. So much to do. And I’ll probably do about less than half of it. 😛

So today I want to share another poem I wrote! I hope you guys enjoy it:

Complaints.

I hear them all day.

At work.

At home.

From friends,

Parents,

Coworkers,

Acquaintances,

Strangers,

Everyone.

Even I do it.

But why?

Are we really that miserable?

Why are we not supposed to like work?

Why is it socially acceptable to complain?

Why is it expected?

Why are we being so unhappy in what we do?

Why?

To think,

People find it easier to complain than do anything about it.

That finding the positive in something negative is looked at as being strange.

Why?

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Okay.

Let’s talk about this one.

I wrote this in a heat. I was mad and frustrated. So it’s funny, I heard people complain all day at my previous job when I worked with the general public every day but the complaining didn’t bother me as much as it does now. That’s probably because of my attitude and mood towards things myself because as we all know, misery loves company! Or maybe it’s something else. Who knows. I don’t.

Well I’ve been attempting to take a different approach. To be more positive. To take a negative and put a positive spin on it for myself and others. Am I always successful? No. Sometimes I fail and sit down and complain myself. But I’m trying and that’s what matters. It gets better every single day.

And you know what happens?

People look at me strangely. Like I’m the weird one. Uh. NO. Sorry. I’m not the weird one. You happen to be. Sorry. But why are we being miserable WHEN WE CAN BE HAPPY AND CHANGE IT?! That’s what I want to do. Be happy. And spread happiness. And the more that I do this at work, the more people notice and the more infectious it is.

We can be the change we want to see in others. As long as it is about attitudes. We can spread happiness and joy. Complain less, smile more!

Enjoy your weekends! Do fun things! And be sure to spread joy wherever you go. Most importantly though, stay classy and sassy<3

 

Forgotten

Poetry time!

Hello guys!

In the spirit of being back to writing again here’s a little poem I wrote:

Each day passes

Your memory fading from others

Soon they’ll forget what you did,

Who you were,

That you mattered in their life.

I always think I’ve prepared myself for it.

Until it actually happens.

It always cuts deep.

Did they really forget?

Is it easier for them to just let it all go?

Did they mean more to me than I did them?

I guess I should just be thankful for my memories and experiences.

Whether they remember me or not.

But it still hurts…

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This is something I think about all the time. Especially with being blessed/cursed with a good memory. I almost always remember people and the time that I spent with them. And it seems like they’re so quick to forget. Especially people you worked with or even spent a lot of time with in school or just in general. I’m always curious about if they’re just playing that they forgot or did I just make such a small mark on their life that it’s just wiped from their memory. And honestly? The thought of that hurts. Not to say that I make a significant impact on every single person that I meet but I think that everyone that I have met or spent any sort of time with has an impact on me. Big or small. They help shape who I am and who I become.

I guess it all comes down to, I want to make an impact on someone. And I want to know I’ve made that impact.

That’s a big reason of why I write.

Until Friday,

Stay classy and sassy<3

I AM BACK! Maybe. Hopefully.

Powered through my block!

Hello guys!

It’s another Monday! woo. Yeah I’m actually not too excited for this Monday either. Meh.

So most of this weekend I spent annoyed and frustrated. At just about everything. My mood was terrible and I couldn’t get out of it. I think a lot of it had to do with my creative block. Especially my writer’s block. It plagued me for most of the weekend.

I spent all day Sunday trying different things to get out of it.

Writing. Coloring. Drawing. Everything was not going how I wanted it to go. Actually it was going worse that how I wanted it to go.

It wasn’t until last night that I started listening to music and thinking about what I was listening to. Most of it was pretty mindless but slowly I started getting into the deeper meaning songs that I enjoy. And I came up with this:

Apologies.

They’re some of the hardest words to say and even harder to get from others.

You finally find the words. The strength. And you say,

I’m sorry.

Sometimes its not enough.

So you search for different words, the right words, and even gestures to show another how truly remorseful you feel for whatever you did or say that hurt them in the first place.

So you find them and again you say,

I’m sorry.

But it’s still not enough.

They walk away. Leaving you behind. Never looking back. And you say,

I’m sorry.

You’re pleading for them to stay. Or at least look back at you.

They keep going. And you whisper,

I’m sorry.

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I absolutely love this one. So so much.

I think it captures how truly heartbreaking it is to hurt another and have them never forgive you. I also think it really captures how hard it is to be the one that’s been hurt and how difficult it is to make the decision to walk away.

I’m so happy with how this piece turned out, you guys. I wasn’t going to give up on pushing through this block. I’m just so ecstatic that it only lasted a few days! Yes!

The support I felt was amazing and thank you.

Stay classy and sassy. ❤

Lord, Help me…

Blocks suck.

Hello and welcome back guys!

We made it through another week! Woo-hoo. Pats on the back for everyone.

So today, my post is late. Way later than usual. And it sucks.

I have a reason for it being late and that’s because I’m having a creative block. I had a high and I shared that all with you guys and I wanted to do some writing to share with you guys today but everything isn’t to my liking or to at least my willing to share it with you guys standard.

And I’ve been writing a lot today and yesterday.

Blocks suck. But they happen. I just gotta push through it by continuing to write and flush it out and re-work my words and re-organize my ideas and all that.

Now why I’m not sharing some other project is because I haven’t done one 😦 No drawing or craft because I haven’t had the time. Or rather I haven’t tried to make the time because now my nerves are kicking in and I’m getting scared! Ah! But it’s all about pushing myself through it. I can do it. I mean I’ve done so much that I’ve been absolutely terrified to do this past year so I CAN DO ANYTHING! (That’s me shouting it from the roof tops!)

Basically this is my lame attempt to not leave you guys hanging and to explain why I don’t have a super cool and kind of amazing post today.

Hopefully this weekend will be good for me. I get to spend time with my muse (Mathew). As lame as it is his cute butt inspires me a lot creatively. So let’s all keep our fingers crossed.

And to say I have a block is a real and true thing. I have struggled so much with just writing this post. OMG. What is going on with me?!

Stay classy and sassy guys!

 

Trying New Things

Directional shift of the blog!

Hello and welcome back y’all!

Let’s take care of a little bit of business real quick here. So Monday I hit a milestone… 100 POSTS! What?! 100. Posts. Holy crap that is so many. Wow. I can’t believe it. I would have never thought that I would be at this point. Especially because I was terrified to take the leap to start this blog. But I’ve done it. Here we are! And I want to thank you all for it. I couldn’t have done it without your support. You guys reading my content are the reason why I continue to do this. So thank you.

I know that lately I’ve been doing more creative things instead of my “typical” content. To be completely honest I’ve been enjoying it a lot more. It’s been a struggle but in a completely different way rather than what I was doing before. It’s causing my creative juices to flow and to flow a lot more. With that being said I’ve been wanting to try some new things in the creative sense.

I officially want to try to being a creative blogger. I don’t know exactly what that is going to entail but that’s what I want to be. I want to challenge myself creatively. With my writing, my crafts and drawing.

Woah, wait, crafts and drawing?

Yeah.

I want to start drawing more and sharing those with you. Good or bad. Hopefully they’re good. For my sake! Ideally I’d share my drawings and either together or completely me, make a short story or poem or some sort of writing along with it. Or it be stand alone work. These are all just ideas being thrown out here.

As far as crafts go, I’d really enjoy sharing my journey of making things and exploring new crafting types, like crochet, refinishing things, sewing, cross-stitching, etc. It’d be fun. Or terrible. I will be showing my success AND my fails. So be ready for some frustrated posts! 😛

What do you guys what to see? What do you suggest I do or try? Like these ideas? (If I hear nothing I will assume you all LOOOOOVE these ideas!)

Stay classy and sassy ❤