Lost in Thought

Sharing some thoughts from last night

Last night as I had YouTube aimlessly playing music in the background of me getting some stuff done around my room, it was randomly playing song after song. I soon found myself “rabbit holing” to some real throwbacks of my teenage years. I stopped to listen and really hear the lyrics to some of my favorite tunes from my past. The lyrics caught me by surprise to some of the songs. My younger self hadn’t truly listened or understood much of what the artist was singing about.

Now I do. And oh how I can relate now. These songs and subject matter really struck a chord with me and immediately got me thinking about myself, my life and my choices so far.

At first I was thinking about all the mistakes I’ve made. But I stopped myself. That word, mistakes. I don’t feel like it should be a word, at least not one to be used to describe past choices in one’s life. Every choice or action I made and make serves a purpose. I might not like the outcome of that choice or action I make but if I didn’t make that choice or do that action I wouldn’t be right where I am today.

And I like where I am today. Honestly it takes a lot of strength, understanding and patience to say that.

Let me put it into a bit of perspective for you. I am 24 years old and I live at home with my family again after previously living on my own. I’m also divorced. My marriage lasted less than a year and I was left with a lot of feelings and emotions after my marriage ended. Now I won’t get into all of that, but last night I was thinking about my marriage and divorce, I was thinking about how it was a big mistake.

In reality that couldn’t be further from the truth. It was meant to happen to teach me so much about myself, about others, about love and about relationships.

Plus if I hadn’t chosen to do it, I wouldn’t have Mathew or my career or some of the best friends I am blessed to have now. I also doubt I would have my blog or my Etsy shop if I hadn’t had my marriage and divorce. I just know that I definitely wouldn’t have the appreciation for everything that I do now.

This is all a good and helpful reminder that everything really does happen for a reason. I am understanding and accepting of my choices. I am happy I went through my marriage and my divorces. As weird as that sounds.

I just need to remind myself of this from time to time.

So remember, no mistakes, only purpose.

This isn’t to say we can’t change choices or mend broken things. We can. We will.

Stay classy and sassy<3

 

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Change

Enjoy another poem.

Hello guys!

I wrote another poem. Such a surprise right? Nope. Not at all. Here it is:

Change.

Sometimes I’m aware its happening

Other times I’m oblivious.

But regardless I’m always patient.

Biding my time

Being understanding

When all I actually want to do is

Scream, shout, yell.

Tell things to stop. To stay the same or go back to how they were.

I’m not ready for it.

I don’t want it.

And yet,

It happens.

Things change.

And I’m still here;

Being patient,

Understanding,

And trying to make the best of it.

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Okay, so I wrote this for so many different reasons and things and I want it to stay that way. To stay vague.

So I won’t comment on it too much or expand on my thoughts when writing it because I don’t want to take away from the beauty that it is with how it can be applied to so many specific things as well as broad and generic ideas.

Hope you enjoyed it. It felt good to get out.

Love you guys.

Stay classy and sassy like always.

Creative Inspiration

What I do to get in the inspired mindset

Hello and welcome back guys!

It’s Friday! Yay! We’ve made it through another week!

I thought today might be good to talk about creative inspiration and where I seem to find mine.

Almost always my creative inspiration doesn’t come at a good time. Especially my inspiration for writing.

More often than not I tend to get ideas and inspiration when I’m at work. Which gets to be really frustrating at times. In those instances, I keep a notebook near me. I try to write down as much as I can about my ideas without letting it interfere with my work day.

Just in general I try to keep a notepad and pen close by in case something comes to me.

So where do I find my inspiration when I do have time to work on things? It all depends on what kind of mood I’m trying to achieve. I use music playlists, people I surround myself with/reach out to when trying to get into the groove (this sounded dirtier than I intended :P), the physical items around me and I also use my Pinterest boards to inspire me. Sometimes this works, sometimes it doesn’t.

Sometimes getting out of my typical environment does the trick. What I mean by that is going to a café, coffee place, a library, or a park can really do wonders for your work.

I also find that clearing my mind helps get my creative juices flowing. Doing some deep, calming breathing helps me calm down and forget about all my real world stress and problems so I can focus on creating. Sometimes it’s creating new and different problems. 😉

But I also let the real world inspire me. We write and create best with what we know ❤

So what do you guys do? When do you find yourself getting most inspired?

Stay classy and sassy 😀