My heart is so full yet so empty.

Feeling emotional, trying to get some of it out.

Hello guys.

I have been sitting here. Looking at my screen for the past hour. Trying so desperately to find the words to create what I want to say. What I’m feeling and wanting to get across. But I can’t. I have written words and deleted words over and over. And this was the best I could come up with to express everything that I’m feeling:

You are a part of everything that I write,

Everything I imagine,

Everything I create.

You’ve become such a part of me, my soul, who I am.

I am beyond grateful to know you.

Beyond blessed for how you inspire me.

How I have changed for the better because of you.

Words will never describe how I feel about you,

But thank you for all that you are to me.

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And then I also wrote:

Life is way too short;

Unfortunately I’ve learned that far too much in the past few weeks.

So forgive if I hold on a bit tighter, a bit longer.

I apologize if I check in with you more than you think I should.

I just want to know from now on that I’ve done everything that I can,

And I have less regrets with friendships,

I can’t take much more of the heartache knowing I should and could’ve done more.

Just know it’s all out of love.

Because I love you.

Always have.

Always will.

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My heart hurts but yet it is full. Full of hope. Full of love. Full of so many things. It hurts for others and myself. It hurts because of the unknown. Because of so many things. I just needed to get some of it out. Somehow. Any way. And this is what I got. I hope you guys enjoyed it. I hope it helps. You, me, anyone.

Stay classy and sassy guys<3

 

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Friday Reflection

My thoughts on the last couple weeks.

Hello guys and welcome back!

So Fridays seem to be one of my most difficult days to publish lately. It’s hard to get myself to just sit down and write and post. The easy fix, I know is to do it ahead of time and just schedule when my posts are going to go up but I’m not quite there yet in the productivity department ๐Ÿ˜‰

I think today would be a good day to just reflect on the last couple weeks, especially since I have myself sitting down and writing. For now. ๐Ÿ˜›

Today marked the end of my second week in my new job. So was I too soon in saying how happy I was and how much I loved it? Nope. Not at all. I fortunately am working for the same company I was before but in a completely different department. It’s exciting. A very much needed change and a welcomed change of pace. My hours are set for the first time in quite a while. I have weekends off, every single weekend. Now that is something I am trying to get used to! The work is great. I feel like I have a lot of power to make changes and help the company as well as others but at the same time very little power. It’s weird, I know. But that’s the best way I can explain it without saying what I do for a living. Which I won’t, for personal reasons ๐Ÿ™‚ But I really enjoy the people I work for and work with. I feel that I’m already fitting in and I’m beyond happy every single day that I leave work. Which is just the best feeling ever. That and the added energy that I have.

Enough about that.

So the other night I had the absolute pleasure of getting together with a lot of the people that I used to work with in Dayton. Now I don’t think we have all ever been in the same place at the same time ever. But like 95% of us finally got together and it was everything I wanted it to be and more. Now these people were my family for 3 years and I am also lucky enough to call them my friends. Being able to catch up with one another and relive the “glory” days was the best. They are some of the most beautiful souls I have had the pleasure of meeting and working both for and with. I would share the amazing picture we took but I want the also respect their privacy of not being plastered on my blog ;P

Overall I just feel a relief in the last couple of weeks. A relief from a lot of the burden I felt that I had been carrying. A relief from the sadness and anxiety I had been struck with. A relief from the stress that had been plaguing me.

I also have been feeling incredibly humbled and blessed with everything I have been able to experience, do, achieve, and have in the last couple weeks as well as in general. It’s funny how when you’re going through it a lot of the time, I know myself is guilty of this always, but we can’t appreciate or understand it. Once it’s passed us by that’s when we realize it wasn’t that bad or it really was greater than we thought, etc. I know that I realized that about the “crap” I had been going through before this life change.

Which is why I think it’s important that I’m reflecting on it.

To put it out there for myself and others, both going through it with me or going through their own. Always reflect and be open and honest about it. You may completely surprise yourself, I know I have.

Stay classy and sassy guys<3

Craftin’ Time!

See what crafts I’ve been working on lately!

Hello new and old friends!

So what in the heck have I been working on lately?

Great question. Well this is what I’ve been working on lately:

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I know these just look like painted pots in various sizes but these little cuties are going to be Pokemon pots. In the next month or so I will be launching an Etsy shop where you’ll be able to score these soon-to-be completed beauties. I will give more details once the Etsy shop is live!

I also have been working on this:

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This is something I was able to make from a heart shaped chocolate box from Valentine’s Day. My boyfriend, Mathew, got me this box and I wanted a way to keep it as a memento from our first Valentine’s Day together but I didn’t want it just be a chocolate box that made me sad every time I realized there was no chocolate in it. I know you all can relate to that. So I came up with this. We’re cute and oh so mushy and gushy and say this to each other all the time. Naturally I thought it was perfect and cute to put on this and be extra dorky and sappy. I love it and so does Mathew so that’s all that really matters here ๐Ÿ˜›

The last craft I have been kind of working on, or meaning to start, is this:

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So these will be cute little kawaii storage jars for things like my paint brushes, pencils, etc. I plan on painting them the solid pastel colors you see on top of the jars and then adding kawaii faces to them. Which will make them just too cute to handle.

So what have you been working on? What do you think of these? What should I do next?

Stay classy and sassy โค

April Favorites!

What I loved in April!

Hello my lovely friends! I know I have been slacking with my monthly favorites but they are back!!

Nerdย Favorites:

Game Pickup: Probably my Mario Kart 8 Deluxe that I just got today actually. I think that this is seriously my best pickup in awhile. And most exciting. I went to my local Target near my work this morning and stood in line waiting for it to open just to pick up the game. AND get the puzzle cube that came with it. That’s what I was really after honestly. And it did NOT disappoint. I got that puzzle cube and I love the puzzle cube. I really think it’s one of the best pre-order offered items that I have seen in awhile. Most of the time I don’t care and I definitely don’t like paying full price for a game buuuuuut once in awhile things are worth it and you just gotta bite the bullet. So I did just that.

Comics: So I just decided to go down the very slippery slope of comic books. And lord help us all. I specifically have gotten into Bob’s Burgers, Invader Zim and Adventure Time. And oh my goodness, they’re all super cute and so great to read! I highly recommend them. I do have to say that I’m very proud of myself for not decided to collect, buy and read a superhero comic. That would be so much more worse than what I am currently doing. ๐Ÿ˜› But I have found this new found hobby and interest to be a lot of fun and really rewarding. And the reading isn’t half bad either ๐Ÿ˜‰

Nerd Moment: C2E2 and meeting Evanna Lynch. I think that is in the top 10 of all my nerdy moments in my life so far. Meeting her, being able to take a picture with her and attending her panel meant so much to me. The Harry Potter fandom has always had a very very special place in my heart. It is honestly practically impossible for me to put in to words what all it means to me and why it is so important to me so I honestly am not going to even try. It was nice to know that so many of the things that I have struggled with and still struggle with, she has gone through and understands. I know it’s silly but it really resonated with me. It just helped confirm my love for the fandom even more.

Media Favorites:

Music: “Stay” by Zedd ft. Alessia Cara: I have been obsessed with this song. Just ask Mathew. He has had to suffer through this song so many times that I think he’s far beyond over it. But me? I can’t get enough. I love the music, her voice, the vocal arrangement, just everything. My only problem is it is so catchy that it gets stuck in my hear almost constantly. Which is why I listen to it so much. To try to get it out of my head.

TV: Real Housewives of Beverly Hills: I honestly LOVE reality TV. Yes, I have SOME shame in it but not that much! I don’t get much time to watch TV as I prefer to because I would rather play video games and watch YouTube videos in my limited free time. But with everything going on in the last month or so I wanted an escape that didn’t require much brain power. Hence the reality TV. And the Housewives shows have always been a favorite go to for me. Especially Beverly Hills. Thank you Kyle Richards and Lisa Vanderpump. The drama makes me feel quite a lot better about my own life which was the goal. So win for me!

Book: This Is Where It Ends by Marieke Nijkamp: I have always been drawn to books with darker premises and this is no exception. This book is very powerful as it takes place in the perspective of four different high school kids in the span of 55 minutes during a school shooting. Yeah. Its very intense and a very quick read but it is a fantastic one. I can’t recommend this book enough. It’s very sad and scary but it really puts things into perspective. It makes you think about what really matters and how the stupid and trivial things that we worry about so much every single day just don’t even really matter in the grand scheme of things. The author did a very good job and wrote it beautifully. I think she captured the emotions perfectly and didn’t leave the reader disappointed with anything, but most definitely not the ending. This has quickly become one of my favorite reads and earned a spot on my bookshelf.

Makeup:

Katy Perry Katy Kat Mascara: OMG! This mascara is magic. Seriously. I fell in love with it. The wand is a little peculiar but it goes on so well and makes my eyelashes pop so so so much! It doesn’t clump and smooths out my eyelashes perfectly making it look like my own lashes au natural.

Brown eyeliner, specifically Colour Pop’s Mr. Bing crayon eyeliner: I have always been a black eyeliner girl. Exclusively black eyeliner. I never tried any other color because why? Black is classic. It’s classy. It works with everything. And then I got this beauty in my Ipsy glam bag. I decided to be more adventurous rather than complain and I am so glad that I did! The brown outlines my eyes really well and makes the green in my eyes pop. Which is always what I am striving for. Which now I am able to do that more!

Goddess Gold by INT Cosmetics eyeshadow: Another pleasant surprise from my Ipsy glam. It is very pigmented, very easy to apply, stays in place, and wears well. I use it as an all-over lid color and like I said it stays in place and lasts all day. Which is definitely something that I find is hard to achieve.

What are some of your favorite things from this past month? What are your thoughts on my favorites? Let me know!

Stay classy and sassy!

 

 

Favorite Games!

Talking about Paper Mario this time!

Hello and welcome my lovely friends!

Thankfully things seemed to have calmed down for me and I’m also starting to feel a lot better mentally and emotionally so let’s get back to our regularly scheduled broadcast shall we?!

Today I will be sharing another game close to my heart and that is Paper Mario: The Thousand-Year Door.

This was my first introduction to the Paper Mario series and arguably the best game in the series, so what a game to start up with.

I immediately fell in love with the art design of the game. Especially Paper Princess Peach. How cute is she?! The Thousand-Year Door also happened to be my first turn-based RPG. Funnily enough (seeing how this game is one of my favorites) turn-based games always were unappealing because, to be honest, up until a couple years ago I was a button masher (and I still am at times, no shame :P). So turn-based and me just seemed like the wrong idea. But The Thousand-Year Door just still looked too good to stay away from.

I bought the game and as soon as I got it home and started playing I became completely immersed in it. The tutorial made my introduction to turn-based games incredibly easy and natural. Now this could be nostalgia taking over or the game really is just that good but, the story line for The Thousand-Year Door was the best of the Paper Mario games. None of it seemed forced or really like it went downhill in quality or anything at any point during the game. I think the fact that they changed up the sidekicks of Mario throughout the game helped the story and game play feel fresh.

I did find myself enjoying the battle mechanics quite a lot too. Since things would change somewhat as the story progressed I really feel that it helped keep it exciting. And I mean who wouldn’t enjoy “performing” a battle on a stage for audiences? And you get helped (and hurt) based on your performances?! How cool!

The humor and jokes in this game are terribly great. I personallyย love dad jokes and bad jokes and groaners (just as Mathew ;)) so this game definitely did not disappoint which is something that i have found to be a nice and comforting constant throughout the series. Just this entry in the series had some of the best lines.

Overall I can’t give this game enough praise. So go out and play it. You won’t be let down. And tell me all about it!

Talk to you all Friday! Stay classy and sassy โค

How I Afford my Video Game Hobby

Some tips and best practices for affording video game collecting!

Hello and welcome lovelies!

I thought today would be fun to talk a little bit about some of the things that I do to afford my video game collecting hobby. It might give you collectors or aspiring collectors some ideas on how to afford this hobby!

First and foremost, I set a budget. I determine what I can spend this pay period on game collecting. Sometimes I’m really good at sticking to that. Other times not so much. Which is why I always give myself some wiggle room with the budget I set for myself.

I also coupon in other places in my life to help fund my hobby. I download a lot of the stores apps, have apps downloaded on my web browser, Google things, etc. to find great deals and coupons for my purchases. You’d be surprised at what you can find. The Honey web browser app is amazing. It compares all the coupons codes found online and tests them to help you get the best deal. Also use ebates when you know you’re going to be buying things online. It really works and is great. You actually get money back. It’s sometimes hard to remember to use but it is worth the extra little bit of effort. I also have an app on my phone called Slidejoy which adds ads on my lock screen and I don’t even have to actually read or open the ads themselves. I get money based on how many times I open my phone during a day and once I hit a certain threshold I redeem it for money or gift cards to help me out allowing me to spend more money on games.

Another thing that I do is sell games. But only my doubles. I am guilty of picking up games or friends buy me games to help me out and they happen to be games I already have and from stores that do no returns. So I usually wait until I have a good number and just trade them in somewhere and use that towards a more expensive game I’ve been having my eye on.

I will smartly use my credit cards to rack up cash back points on my everyday purchases. I usually take my saved up points, redeem them for cash and put that back in to my hobby or a big purchase that I need to make. Just make sure you’re careful with you’re credit cards. Its so easy to get out of control. I know this from personal experience. ๐Ÿ™‚

One last thing that I will share with you guys is probably the most simple and duh moment. Stay in. Enjoy the games that you have. Watch a movie. Go for a walk at a local park or in your neighborhood. Bake. Just do something free. Bonus points if you finally sit down and read a book you’ve been putting off or play a game that you already have that you’ve always wanted to play. And extra bonus points if it gets you moving or prepares you for the following week. You’d be shocked at how much a weekend in will save you in money. Not that I follow this practice as often as I should. I’m trying to get better at this one ๐Ÿ˜›

If you guys want more tips and best practices let me know! Let me know yours as well and what you think of these.

Enjoy your weekend friends and like I always say; stay classy and sassy โค

Collinswoah13’s February Favorites

Going over my monthly favorites!

Guys! Welcome back and hello!

February has been a VERY up and down month for me. Man. I am very happy to see it go but I will honestly miss it quite a bit. I hope you guys have had an amazing month and that it just gets better from here.

Today we will be going over my favorites of the month! Woo-hoo!

Nerdy Favorites:

Roccat Tyon Mouse: So once I finally got this mouse (oh man was that a journey) I really have enjoyed it a lot. I wanted a gaming mouse but I didn’t want something with all the tons of numbered buttons because I found that just to be overwhelming. So when I found this little gem I was ecstatic. This guy has buttons, which is something I definitely wanted, but not too many of them (because at this point in my PC gaming, which is still not much, I don’t have too much of a use for them). The mouse is super comfortable in my hand and for my grip type. I’m a palmer if any one cared to know that ๐Ÿ˜› AND the best part is, it has pretty lights! Yeah, that to me is the best part. I also like that it’s just a good quality mouse, and definitely more than I have ever spent on a mouse. I do have to say watch the price carefully because you can get some fantastic deals on it but it is worth the money to spend on it.

Razer BlackWidow Chroma Clicky Mechanical Gaming Keyboard: Wow. Now that was a mouthful. This keyboard is probably my favorite thing I have gotten for my PC so far. It is my new baby. I love this keyboard so so so much. It’s super clicky which is something I REALLY wanted. I can’t get enough of the noise quite honestly. Its RGB so I can keep my rainbow game strong when using the keyboard. Which I do all the time. Though the layout of the keyboard throws me off sometimes (because it’s slightly different than any other keyboard I use) I quickly get used to it again and honestly prefer it. So far this little guy has not let me down and just continues to make me super happy.

The Cabin by Natasha Preston: So what would a monthly favorites post be without me recommending a book to you guys?! I think it wouldn’t be a very good one ๐Ÿ˜‰ This book is my favorite one that I read this past month. I happened to stumble across this book when purchasing another book on Amazon, so I definitely fell down the rabbit hole. I have to say, I am very impressed with this author’s writing. I personally am a big scaredy cat when it comes to anything scary. Just ask pretty much any close person to me in my life and they will most definitely agree with me. So this book is a murder mystery, thriller and I could not get enough of it. The cliffhangers were great, well placed and natural. The story left me guessing until the end and the plot twists were just amazing. By the title of the book you expect it to be a cabin the woods type of situation. Well that’s only sort of true. Seven teenagers take a weekend trip to a family owned cabin for a celebratory weekend because school is out and it’s finally summer. There’s drinking involved and fun but the next morning they wake up to find two of their friends murdered. The rest of the story is spent trying to figure out who did it because it had to be one of the remaining five teens because of the way the situation was laid out. The story is told from the perspective of ultimate naive, good girl Mackenzie as she struggles to put the pieces together and try to find out which of the five people she trusts so much is a murderer. Everything about this book is good and leaves me wanting more even after I finished it. I liked the author’s work so much I actually picked up a couple more of her books, which I will let you guys know how I feel about them once I finish ๐Ÿ˜€

Beauty Favorites:

Matte Lipstick: Okay, I know how broad this is but listen. I have never been a lipstick wearer until I got a matte lipstick from Ulta in a free makeup bag with purchase thing and I am in LOVE. I happened to get another one from my Ipsy bag this month and again, I love it so so so much. It also helps that these colors also just happen to go with my skin tone perfectly. I always loved the glossy looking lipsticks and glosses and all that but never on me. I really recommend y’all to get yourself a nice matte lipstick (if you have ever wanted to wear lipstick that is ;)).

Tutti Dolci Pink Peony Creme: So this returning but new scent and line? from Bath and Body Works is amazing. I happened to see it when walking by the store in the mall and had to stop to at least smell the scents and I really really liked Pink Peony Creme. So much so that I bought the body mist and two bottles of the shower gel and I have not regretted this decision at all.

Mask of Magnaminty from Lush: This is by far my new favorite mask. The smell alone is almost enough to make it my favorite. The fact that I have combination skin and this neither dries me out nor makes me super oily is fantastic. It also made my skin so clean and so extremely smooth. It also makes me look silly when I put it on, making me have a very green face so win there. I just am all around very happy and pleasantly surprised with this product. (I’m not gonna lie, I had no idea what exactly this face mask was supposed to do when purchasing it so I’m just happy it did something good.)

A little bit different of a layout this month versus last month but hey, that’s what happens when things don’t always fit into nice neat little categories every time. These are my favorite things of the month. Let me know what you guys think of these products personally if you’ve tried themย or if you do try them.

Until next time, stay classy and sassy ๐Ÿ˜€