Lately I have been starting projects both writing and others but I can’t seem to finish any of them and I’ve been really thinking about that more than usual. I think it stems from my ramblings last week. I feel like lately I’ve been starting things and not finishing them more than ever before.
I guess one reason is that I just have too many ideas sometimes. Once I start getting an idea or I am in the creative zone it’s just one idea after another often times. I’m afraid that they’re going to get lost and disappear and be gone forever when that happens so I write them down as quickly as I can and as many of them as I can. I always tell myself I’ll come back to them but then I don’t more often than not…
But the bigger reason is fear. There are so many what ifs I have. Part of this whole process is learning and improving and just doing. That doesn’t erase that underlying fear though. I shouldn’t care about any negativity that I get. It’s all constructive (even when the party doesn’t intend it to be). I need to keep doing and keep going and not continue being so hard on myself. I know that I am my biggest critic and I know that I’m the one that’s hardest on myself. It’s okay to not like every single thing that I make. That’s why I can try again. But it’s also why I need to learn to listen to others feedback on my work because I might be blind and too hard on myself to see how it really is.
I also need to stop making excused and just keep going.
The biggest sufferer in all of this is my writing. I have started so many stories and just walked away.
So I’m going to stop making excuses.
And let’s start working on them. Together.
Stay classy and sassy<3