Explaining a bit of what’s going on with me.
Monday evening I went to see a psychologist. And I needed it so much. Honestly, more than I even realized. Which we all know, I know I needed it quite a lot.
I’m not going to go into it too much because I have to draw a line somewhere, ya know? But what I am going to share is that I ended up talking about things that I just didn’t realize we bugging me. Obviously they were more subconscious but still. I also was more honest with myself and my psychologist than I feel that I have been about these types of issues.
One of those things being, I hold myself to a very ridiculously high standard. Like stupid high. And I need to stop that. Which won’t happen immediately or all on its own but with work and time, hopefully I can. I also blame myself too much and put pressure on myself in ways I really shouldn’t and ultimately are unhealthy for me.
I’m sure you guys know where this is leading…
I’m taking a break. A real, real break. I’m going to try to learn to relax, focus on me and rest up.
Right now, the high standard that I put on myself with my blog is not helping things. It won’t be too long but it won’t be too short.
Though I’m looking forward to this break, I’m looking forward to working on no pressure writing and just see what blossoms when I come back.
Stay classy and sassy<3
Raw and honest but short and sweet!
So I wanted to give you guys an update on me and let it be a little bit more raw and honest. Not that I’m not usually honest but I’m going to be a little bit more out there than usual.
First and foremost I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and generalized anxiety disorder in the past and most recently, post-traumatic stress disorder. Let me tell you, this combination can be really hard at times. And lately it has been extremely difficult. Every single day has been a struggle lately to get out of bed and to keep going on with my normal tasks like work, conversations with people, leaving the house, etc. Even blogging lately has been hard. Some of the reasons for the spike in symptoms I know and I have been trying to manage but a lot of them I don’t. I have been trying my best to do everything I know of to help keep things somewhat under control. I also am hoping that the more I keep doing these things and powering through normal every day life that this surge in symptoms will pass with time. All I know is right now, every day is hell. But I’m trying my hardest to keep hope up.
Fitness wise I have gotten back into the swing of things, I have been working my butt off to keep active and to be healthier (not food-wise nearly as much though).
I know it’s short but it’s sweet and gets to the point. Today has been a very hard day for me and I thought about not even posting at all but I didn’t want to let any of you guys down.
I hope you all have a wonderful and amazing weekend. Stay classy and sassy. ❤