Desire (WIP)

I know I said I would get into my time off more in detail but I’ve been finding it difficult to find the right words to articulate what I’m exactly trying to say and have come across. So that is coming. It’s just a work in progress.

However, I’ve been feeling the poetry bug lately. So I wanted to share one that I’m happy with how it’s turned out so far.

I have all these things I want to try,

To accomplish,

To do.

I take steps forward to try.

Small steps.

But that’s when the anxiety creeps in;

“They’ll make fun of you. You’re not good enough. Do you really know how? Do you actually have the time? The drive? Are you skills good enough? Do you have the right stuff?”

These thoughts pull me down.

Quickly snuffing out the fire of any desire I once had.

Not even letting it catch to let it start to blaze within me.

And so I’m left with the same routine.

Doing the same things day in and day out.

What happened to trying? What happened to pushing? What happened to just doing?

What happened to me? When did I change? Where did the person I know go?

 

I hope to find her again.

To let the desire catch and burn, letting nothing stand in it’s way.

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It’s a little all over the place but the idea is there. I just need to work on getting it more together to flush it out even more. Considering it’s my first poem since I decided to first take my break, I’m proud of it. Sharing what you write is incredibly raw and emotional. It’s hard. But there’s something different about sharing a work in progress. It’s still hard, raw and emotional. But there’s a beauty about it. You get to see that writer in a different way. It’s almost like they show just how human they can really be.

And hey, I’m human.

Stay classy and sassy

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New Year, New Goals

Hello 2018! So since my last post was about reflecting, I thought I would take a moment to also look ahead.

What am I hoping to achieve in 2018?

Well:

  • Lose 30 pounds (so cliché, I know)
  • Finish a story
  • Write more poetry
  • Hit 50% mark of a complete GameCube collection
  • Hit 30 Etsy sales (You can find my shop here)
  • Create 1 new full page of products in my Etsy shop
  • Consistently blog and create content
  • Create a Twitch streaming schedule and consistently stream
  • Consistently work out regularly

I feel like all of these are good and attainable goals for 2018.

To get started with my list of goals I’m going to end with a poem:

Fresh snow;

Untouched,

Newly settled.

So much promise.

Perhaps it’ll become a snowman?

A snow angel?

A fort?

Ammo for a snowball fight?

All this potential,

All these ideas,

It all starts with new beginnings.

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Stay classy and sassy

Reading & Writing

Lately I have been reading a lot. Like almost all of my free time has been spent reading. From manga to novels, I have been devouring a lot of what is on my bookshelves. Which is a good thing because my backlog is HUGE!

So where did this motivation for reading come from? I recently discovered a side of YouTube that I had no idea existed. BookTube. I don’t know why I didn’t think that this existed but I have been so engrossed in my new find. I think seeing so many other people’s love for books and reading really inspired me to read more and discover new authors, worlds, characters and stories.

I also have been lacking in the inspiration department for my own stories. Reading is a way that I can find inspiration to breathe new life into stories to keep them going. Now this can also be dangerous as sometimes work can too closely resemble another author’s story or writing style. I’m still learning and try my best to combat this by not reading the same author too much in a period of time when I know that I will also be writing.

Some of you may be asking what exactly have I been reading? Well, I am preparing for the new Cardcaptor Sakura manga to be released this month, So I read the Master of Clow arc that I had no idea existed until recently. I also have read the first 3 books of the Sword Art Online light novel series because I am a weeb. I read Firecracker by David Iserson and  Lies my Girlfriend Told Me by Julie Anne Peters. All are fantastic books in their own right. They all have inspired me to keep going with my current stories but to also try working with different kinds of characters and stories. I’m looking forward to continuing to both read and write more as well as see how all of my recent and current reading shapes and influences my writing. Both in good and bad ways 😛

Stay classy and sassy ❤